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Monday, July 4, 2011

4th of July Challenges

Thank y'all for the amazing support I got in my last post! :)

I wanted to quickly write a post about the 4th of July and the struggles dealing with this damn holiday. Cookouts...fireworks... swim suits...okay, mostly cookouts and swimsuits are the issues.

I have another cookout to go to today and I'm flipping out. It's a purge day ( on my purge schedule ) but yet, I don't want to purge... at all. I really don't but I'm terrified that I'm going to. I just hate being around so much food. I'm a born bulimic and trained anorexic. It's like a reflex to reach my arm into a bag of chips...

I CAN DO THIS. So can you! stay strong!!

xoxo -Lisa
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3 comments:

  1. SairsJuly 4, 2011 at 3:43 PM

    You can do this, I have every faith in you but I do know how hard it is sometimes. Just keep going with baby steps and you will reach your goal. Keep your chin up and once again you CAN do this!
    *hugs*
    Sarah

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  2. Boston FemmeJuly 5, 2011 at 4:06 PM

    I hope it went well, Lisa! I hear ya on July 4th festivities being tough to deal with when you have an ED. You're so strong though and you've come a long way. Just the fact that it was a "purge day" but you didn't want to purge is a big accomplishment! Keep fighting, we all believe in you!

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  3. UnknownJuly 6, 2011 at 12:41 AM

    Hopefully the cookout goes okay and you can get through it with eating and managing not to purge.

    Take care,
    - willfindhope.wordpress.com

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