"Bear in mind you have a life to live. There is an incredible loss. There is a profound grief. And there is, in the end, after a long time and more work than you ever thought possible, a time when it gets easier." -Marya Hornbacher

Sunday, May 8, 2011

There's a time...

... for healing
There's a time for all purposes under the sun
There's a time for laughter
There's a time to let go and a time to hold on...


I feel as if I'm doing better this afternoon. This morning was a shitshow. I probably "mini-purged" 10+ times. I havn't cut today which is good. 


I've told my parents how much I'm struggling but I'm hoping things turn around for me soon. 


I weighed myself today- which is stupid- dumb idea- dumb dumb dumb- DUMB. goddammit- dumb. 


I just want things to be better, maybe I need another change in my meds. I can get better. I CAN. I CAN.

xoxo -Lisa
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10 comments:

  1. JCMay 8, 2011 at 8:03 PM

    You can get better. It takes a long time to know you've made that choice and to settle in it and find ways to follow through. If we're being realistic, it's tiny baby steps. Decide something you WON'T do this week. After that, see what happens :) I challenge you to try it. Just one thing that you can let go of for the week. A tiny thing, something you won't really even miss. For 7 days. It's a journey but the path is there, and the future is bright. xo

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  2. middle childMay 8, 2011 at 8:04 PM

    Love.
    You are a worthy person.
    I pray for peace.
    I pray for healing.
    I send you love.

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  3. 8May 8, 2011 at 9:10 PM

    One step at a time.

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  4. LilyMay 8, 2011 at 9:27 PM

    keep your head up girl!! Keep pushing through the tough stuff - like Jess said make goal and reward yourself when you reach them then move from there - stay strong!!

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  5. battleinmindMay 9, 2011 at 4:51 AM

    YOU CAN :D
    I think it's a good thing you told your parents, keep taking those steps forward lovely.
    xxx

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  6. PTCMay 9, 2011 at 7:58 AM

    Can you go back IP?

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  7. AnonymousMay 9, 2011 at 12:22 PM

    (((hugs))) wish I had more to say but I am feeling low myself.

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  8. Borderline LilMay 9, 2011 at 9:48 PM

    Just wanted to say I'm thinking of you, and hoping for a turn around xx

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  9. AnonymousMay 9, 2011 at 9:55 PM

    It sounds like you're having a tough time right now-- I'm sorry. But I really admire your positivity and I think it will serve you well. And I agree with you-- I think you CAN do it! You are clearly working hard and although sometimes the urges get the best of you you are able to pick yourself up. You're very strong, but don't be afraid to reach out for help if you need it.

    Wishing you well,
    NOS

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  10. FallonMay 9, 2011 at 10:46 PM

    Hey, you didn't cut today. That's an accomplishment! We got to try and be as positive as possible. Hang in there, girl.

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